one month closer!

so i just realized that our profiles were recieved at our agency on may 17th...and today is june 17th. one month of waiting is behind us...some days are very hard. i think im struggling because we were told by many that this would happen fast and what is considered "fast" in my eyes and what is "fast" for the world of adoption are two very different things! im realizing that i had unrealistic timelines on our adoption and that despite me truely believing that our baby will only come on Gods precious timing...to trust His timing day to day is not so easy, its hard.
i KNOW one month of waiting is not a long time, lots of people wait several months...some even wait multiple years waiting for that call that will forever change their lives. i feel selfish sometimes for being sad at the end of day when i know today wont be the day that we get "the call". i spend my days trying to talk with God whenever i feel down and thanking Him for all of the ways that he has blessed us so far in this journey. so please continue to pray for us as we wait.

i am trying out a new perspective as we wait...actually it is my sweet mom that started saying this to me and i think its beautiful and it really does help me (most days...)   :-)
she always says tomorrow is one day closer to meeting your baby...and you know what? she is very right! sure i desperately wanted my phone to ring for the past month...but guess what, now we are one month closer to our sweet sweet baby!! for the first time, maybe ever, i now look forward to mondays!!!
each monday is the start of a new week, a week that just might hold the phone call that will bless our socks off. and if friday comes...and then saturday & sunday and my phone is still silent, then guess what...its ok because that just means that we are one week closer and it also means a new week, with new possibilities is starting...i could go on & on.
NO this wont be easy. YES somedays i will still be in a funk and just cry out to Jesus but i want this time of waiting to be filled with excitement, love...and anticipation for our first child, i dont want to look back and know that i moped around the whole time! (not that i have been)

anyways...WE ARE ONE MONTH CLOSER!!!!!! we could not get to our baby without going through this past month!

p.s. monday, our wonderful caseworker "B" is going to be giving us our first big update, so i am VERY excited. praying for good news! Adoption Associates Inc has been so kind and helpful as we are starting this journey...they are a blessing in our lives.